The day after Insomnia and hubby and I were pretty tired to be honest, it had been a very long 4 days. We had been looking forward to booking a holiday before Bailey started university and had provisionally booked two weeks into our work schedule. We had finally decided on a cottage in Dorset/Somerset when 30 minutes after we booked it we had the devastating news that hubby's uncle was in the hospital and wasn't going to make it. Sadly, he had been unwell for a while but it still came as a massive shock. Hubby and I raced down to the hospital and along with hubby's small family were all with him as they turned his life support off. It was one of the saddest things I've ever had to do.
As a family we have been very fortunate that we haven't had to deal with many deaths. Hubby's uncle was only 45 and his two daughters are very similar ages to two of our children making it even more heartbreaking. We felt terrible about booking the holiday and had we known we wouldn't have, we were assured by family that there wasn't much we could do anyway and so we ending up going. Even though I felt guilty not being here I think it was very important for all of us that we had that time as a family to grieve and talk through everything. Hubby and I were already feeling very weary and it was the quiet we needed to talk through so many things and also enjoy some really quality family time together. Bailey chose to stay home, as he had work but we talked to him everyday on the phone and he had friends over too.
Its been a really tough time for us as a family but I'm incredibly proud of how the children have dealt with it all. As if we didn't already realise how precious and short life is something like this happens and you see what things are important and what aren't.
Its still hard to talk about but I think it needed saying or at least addressing on the blog, this is a record/diary of our lives and I know eventually the children will look back at this time. I'm very proud of hubby and the children for their bravery during this time and love you all very much xxx