We've had a really sad day today, even the grey weather reflected our moods. Last night Ruben's hamster Doris passed away, thankfully he was asleep but I had to wait until this morning to tell him. I had so many dreams about telling him and him being upset but I still found it so upsetting to tell him. I had prepared him for it as much as I could as I knew she was nearing the end. I'm really not good with death, thankfully, I haven't had much of it to deal with so far in my life and neither have the children. Another plus point of being younger parents, I suppose. He has dealt with it so well today, I'm really proud of him. Even when Cordelia woke up to Piper telling her the news, thinking she was being helpful she was hoping Cordelia wouldn't come downstairs and set Ruben off. Cordelia was also really upset. Lots of cuddles on the sofa before breakfast, which is never a bad thing. Its very hard to see your children upset and not be able to make it all better for them, its what mama's are meant to do. There have been a few moments today when I wanted to cry but I've managed to distract both of us with other things. Bed time was tricky as Doris was in his room and we had to put a dinosaur display up so there wasn't a big space where she should be. I took Ruben out for some one on one time, I think he really needed it and the girls were being a little impatient with him this morning so it was a good idea. He picked a birthday present for his best friend R and made him a lovely card. We are meeting up with them at the park tomorrow so hopefully that will cheer him up.